more snow

IT'S SNOWING!!!!!!!! Just thought I would let everyone know. I just came in from outside. My fingers are so cold I can hardly type. But who cares. IT"S SNOWING!!

some Lord of the Rings

It's all wrong
By rights we shouldn't even be here
But we are
It's like in the great stories
The ones that really mattered
Full of darkness and danger they were
And sometimes you didn't want to know the end
Because how could the end be happy
How could the world go back to the way it was
But in the end it's only a passing thing
Even darkness must pass
And when the sun shines it will shine out the clearer
Those where the stories that stayed with you
Even if you were too small to understand why
I think I do understand
The folk in those stories had lots of chances of turning back only they didn't
They kept going
Because they were holding onto something
That there's some good in this world
And it's worth fighting for

school

I've been thinking about school a lot lately. I want to be a nurse, but then so do many other people. I know it's going to be hard to get into a nursing program without waiting. I'm going to put an application into UCFV because I would like to do it there. It's close and cheap. Two good things. But I've been thinking that I should send my application to other schools as well. I looked at the SFU website and I don't think they have a nursing program. At least I couldn't find it if they do. I do not want to go to UBC. It is way to big for me. As I was looking around different website I came across a school in Kamloops that offers the nursing program I need. I don't really want to move that far away but if I can't get into UCFV and I do get accepted at this Kamloops university I may have no choice. I want to get my schooling finished. I would rather not be sitting on a waiting list for a couple of years. That wouldn't really accomplish a whole lot. I guess we'll see what happens. I'm still just in the thinking and planning stage. But I'm going to need to start applying soon.

snow

I love snow. I always have and I'm pretty sure I always will. Everytime it snows I always remember back to something that happened when I was a lot younger. I think I was about six and my brother four. We were in our room fighting, which was nothing all that unusual. I guess we stopped to catch our breath or something because we heard a droor open in the kitchen. Of course we assumed that since we were fighting it must be the one with the wooden spoon in it. Even though we never got spanked for fighting I guess we didn't think about that. So then we had something new to fight about. "You're going to get a spanking. No, you're going to get a spanking. No you are. NO YOU ARE!!!" Then came the dreaded, "Melody and Luke, come out here." We stopped our fighting and slowly walked out to the kitchen. As we came in my mom looked at us and said, "look guys, it's snowing!" I don't think I'd ever been so relieved in my life.
One of my friends and I always phone eachother every winter at the first sight of snow. She used to live in Matsqui so I would always phone her and brag that we had snow and they didn't. I think she is the only other person I know who loves snow as much as I do.
One year I was out doing work experience when it started to snow. I was with a lady who hated the snow which kind of put a damper on it but I was so excited I didn't really care.
And then there was the time when I was with one of the little girls that I babysit. This time it was spring and there was a lot of pollen floating in the air. She looked up at the sky and with a huge smile on her face said, "it's snowing!" I thought that was kind of cute.
I guess maybe one of the reasons I love snow so much is that it brings back so many good memories. I used to live in Ontario and so for a good quarter of the year snow was my life. I remember getting all dressed up in warm clothes and sliding down the patio stairs on our sled. I remember my brother and I making a snow slide and not letting anyone else on it. I remember the fancy patterns the ice used to make on the insides of our windows. I also remember the time I licked an icicle and my tongue got stuck to it. I was so suprised I just ripped it off. That's maybe not such a good memory but it makes me laugh. Anyway, enough on the snow. I could go on forever...

life

I haven't written anything in a while. It's not that there is nothing going on....that is far from the truth. I just don't want to blog about it. I am having a problem with understanding one of my friends. She is kind of upset about something and I don't know what to do because I don't think I did anything wrong. It still bothers me though because I hate to see her upset. And then of course some of my other friends get dragged into it (it has to do with them as well) and it becomes this big problem. Maybe eventually things will settle down and everything will become okay again....maybe one day life will return to normal. But I don't think so. I was talking with a friend the other day and she asked me if I thought life would ever go back to the way it was. I said no it wouldn't....too much has happened....we've all changed...but it can become good. Actually, life is good right now....just hard.

change

I was talking with one of my best friends yesterday and she said that I have changed a lot lately. I asked her how and she said she didn't know.....but if she figured it out she'd let me know. I was kind of worried so I asked if it was a bad change....apparently not. Anyway, then I went out with another friend and I asked him if he had noticed a change in me. He said not really. But then after sitting and thinking about it for a while he said that lately I have gotten more of a backbone. I guess I stand up for myself more or something. I guess that's just one more thing that I've adopted into my personality in order to cope better. I don't think it's a bad thing though. It's important to be able to stand up for yourself. Now that I think about it, I never used to be able to. Maybe in a few ways I'm finally growing up.....taking care of myself.....not getting others to do it for me.

changing oil

I changed the oil in my car today. My dad just told me what to do and I did it. Not only was it cold, but it was also raining and nearly dark. I'm quite proud of myself, even though I did get oil all over the driveway. I just decided I needed to learn to do some things on my own. It was actually just kind of fun. Anyway, I guess I just thought I'd brag a bit.

why worry

There has been something that's been bothering me for an extremely long time. Years in fact. It's a situation that is just completely out of my control. I just realized that there is nothing I can do about it. So why worry?? Yeah, i know it's not that simple, but I'm going to try. So any of you out there that know me.....if you ever see me sitting still with a blank look on my face tell me to smarten up. I promise I won't get mad.