body wash

I was having a bath today and for some reason I was reading the directions on my body wash. I started to laugh immediately because it wasn't quite like the other directions you read. You know how most directions say too much. Like the company thinks you are an idiot or something. Well, if an idiot bought this body wash I don't think they would no quite what to do.

Directions: Apply to a wet body sponge or washcloth. Work into a rich lather and rinse thoroughly.

Notice it doesn't say anything about putting the body wash onto your body. I guess it's a good thing I'm not stupid or something.
So yeah, I just thought that was funny.

music

I went to my sister's music concert last nite. Most of it was kind of boring but I found that I really miss being up there performing. I saw my sister up on stage singing and playing her tuba and remembered when that was me, except that I didn't play the tuba. When I was in high school I took as many music classes as I could fit into my time table, as well as all of the extra ciricular ones. And although I loved the classes the concerts were the best! Music was such a huge part of my life for so long and now that it isn't so much I miss it. I still sing in the car or when my mom plays the piano and I still bring out my guitar and my saxophone every once in a while but it's not quite the same. On father's day my sister, my dad, and I sang a song at my parent's church. I was so nervous because I had a little solo but I loved every moment of it. We're going to sing another song or two at christmas so I'm looking forward to that too. It's not the same though. Music isn't every aspect of my life as it once was. I think I'm just being lazy and/or scared.....in school I pretty much had music fed to me. Now I have to work for it and actually make time to do it.

ha ha ha

I had the funniest thing happen the other day. Actually, more than one. I was at school and I had just gotten to my class when I realized I had locked my keys in my car. I was just trying to figure out what to do when one of my friends walked in. I told her what I had done. She suggested I look in my wallet to see if I had an extra key. Luckily I did have an extra key. I don't know why I didn't think of that myself. I was the one who put the key in there in the first place. Well anyway, after class was over I went out to my car, got in, and started to leave the parking lot. The lady in front of me stopped and got out of her car. She seemed to be trying to tell me something. So I unrolled my window and she said that my binder was on top of my car. So then I had to get out of my car to get my binder while the girl behind me was laughing. I was kind of embarrased but it was funny too. What a day!! I guess it was just one of those blonde moments.
When I said that I got embarrased that reminded me of something one of my friends did. He walked into work and his manager and the area manager was there. They were talking for a while when the area manager mentioned that my friends fly was down. He just laughed and said some smart comment about putting on a show for them or something. If that had been me I would have been so embarrased!!

screwing up

I don't know about you, but I hate being reminded of those many times where I have screwed up. I have this one friend in particular who just loves to remind me of such things. I guess it's not all bad. It keeps me humble. We get in these talks sometimes and very often I feel like screaming, "I know I screwed up, just leave me alone!!!!" But this friend also knows what I need the most and when I need it, even if I don't know myself. It's kinda creepy sometimes. The other day it was just a phone call asking how my thanksgiving was. But I really needed that phone call. I was having such a bad day and just knowing that someone out there cares how I'm doing enough to phone me cheered me up a bit. I don't know why God felt that I deserved such amazing friends but I'm sure glad he did. Yes, sometimes they tell me things I don't want to hear and it hurts, but very often it's what I need to hear the most.

wups

Yeah I know my blog is screwed up right now. I tried to add more links and I guess I did something wrong. And Susy isn't home right now to help me. It will be fixed soon.

brokenness

I was just reading a bunch of blogs and there seemed to be a central theme running through many of them. Brokenness. I think God is trying to tell me something. Everyone has hard times. Everyone's heart breaks. And everyone feels helpless at times. Maybe it hasn't really happened to some people yet but don't worry.....it will. I'm in a sort of healing process right now. Maybe I'm not quite there actually. Maybe I'm still in the breaking process. It still hurts, I can't do anything about that. But what I can do something about is how I handle it. I can dig myself a deep hole and crawl into it or I can allow God to shape me into what he has had planned all along. I can hold onto God's hand and allow him to lead me through this with my head held high. I'm having a hard time convincing myself of this even as I am writing. I don't want to be hurt again and the easiest thing to do would be to crawl into that hole. I can't......I know that. But it is so hard.

dreams

I had the most horrible dream last night. Suzy and I were at Tim Hortons and she wasn't able to eat very well. I could tell something was wrong but she just kept denying it. Finally, she said that she had this rare disease that would kill her. I started crying and so did she. For some reason Susan (P) had her office in Tim Hortons and Suzy and I went to sit outside it and talk because someone else was in there. Finally, Suzy went in to talk to Susan and I walked home crying the whole way. The dream is kind of starting to fade. I remembered a lot more of it this morning and it was even more horrible then.
And what really sucks is that I also had a really good dream but I don't remember it at all. I just remember that it was absolutely amazing!!

in this place

God loves to look at us, and loves it when we
will look back at him. Even when we try to
run away from our troubles...God will find us,
bless us, even when we feel most alone, unsure...
God will find a way to let us know that he is with
us in this place, wherever we are.
- Kathleen Norris

What an encouraging quote. God thinks we are beautiful. He never gets tired of looking at us. And he will find us where ever we happen to be. I just read this on a calender that I have and it filled me with a sense of being loved. I'm sharing it hoping that it will do the same for you.

wonder

Isn't it splendid to think of all the things there are to find out about? It just makes me feel glad to be alive - it's such an interesting world. It wouldn't be half so interesting if we knew all about everything.
I was thinking the other day how fun it is to learn new things. I'm so glad God made the world so complicated and wonderful. I'm in school right now and learning all sorts of new stuff I had never really given any thought to before. Like do you know why food goes bad? I do! Do you know why people tend to listen to authority? I'm just getting into that right now and I can't wait to find out. I am planning on becoming a nurse....just think about what I will be able to do....and know. And learning isn't just what they print in text books. There is so much that God can teach me just by letting me be alive. He is the one after all, who made what is written in all those books. I can learn how to love and be free. I can learn how much God loves me. And he can teach me how to trust and forgive again.

songs

So you go and make it happen
Do your best
Just keep on laughing
I'm telling you
There's always a brand new day
.....Avril Lavigne

Why can't you see that freedom
Is sometimes simply another
perspective away
.....Kutless

Just a couple of words from some songs I really like.